My entire frame of reference throughout the last two and a half years has been pain, confusion, deep sadness, heart wrenching grief, primal abandonment and so much more. I didn’t know who the hell I was or what I was doing for the longest time, but i am emerging, breaking through to the other side now. I am ‘me’ once again, but not really—I am better, more me; I have grown, changed. I have transformed.
I wrote this anecdote/poem/thought in the midst of it all. While i was so so sad … I somehow maintained a gratitude practice—not as whole heartedly as usual, but a practice, nonetheless. I knew I had to look for the good, lest I be further dragged down by it all. Radical gratitude, embodied gratitude … practices that change you from the inside out. It’s easy when things are good, necessary when life is hard.
I feel compelled to share this today, as I sincerely want to move past the phrase, ‘life has been hard throughout the last 2+ years.’ Its a frame of reference that’s starting to feel like a broken record. I made it. I’m here, stronger than ever, and willing/able to hold space for others currently going through their own dark night of the soul. For that, and for all that I gained in my despair, i am GRATEFUL!
What are you grateful for? It can be big or frivolous. It’s all a mindset and a gift from God that we have the capacity. Please share in the comments!