being human,  embodiment,  writing

A Word for 2019

I’m convinced that most of us don’t know what the hell we’re doing here, on this earth, in this time. We think we know, then it all falls apart, and when it falls apart, we often defer to old (destructive) habits instead of digging deeper. One step forward, two steps back. That’s been my pattern. I’d ‘do the work,’ then sink in despair, and the cycle would repeat.

After about two ‘dark night of the soul’ YEARS, I’d had enough. I had a breakthrough at Christmastime, on a trip away from home. I can’t define the event, but the ensuing thoughts were, ‘this is my life, WTF am I doing?’

Clarity is ONE of my words for 2019. (I have a few.) It goes like this: What am I really doing? Does (fill in the blank) align with my soul’s purpose? Does it match up with my higher self?

I did a lot of soulwork throughout 2018, and in 2019 I’ve seeked additional counsel, ditched some destructive habits that were weighing me down, started new daily rituals, listened to my body, journaled, yoga’d, consistently practiced embodiment and faced my fears. I’ve allowed myself to feel vulnerable, spoke up when i normally would’ve kept my mouth shut, did the things that felt right at the heart level… and i’m not done yet. No, skip the ‘yet,’ I’ll never be done. It’s a process, but I’m committed.

How is 2019 treating you? Is it time for change? Time to get clear? Love yourself a little more? We are in this together. Sending so much love, today and always.