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    Slow Living on Some Land

    I’ve been working toward a slower lifestyle for many years now, sometimes succeeding, sometimes failing; but each time I digress I am reminded of how important it is to me to live life in the moment instead of getting caught up in the minutiae. According to Wikipedia, “slow living is a lifestyle emphasizing slower approaches to aspects of everyday life,” and that is just one definition among many. ‘Slow Living,’ ‘Simple Living’ and the general idea of simplifying life is a movement that many are passionate about. For at least the last decade there have been many who have sold their homes, chosen nomadic lifestyles, or transitioned to tiny homes with a lot less overhead. I have considered all of the above. My husband, however, has other ideas. While he’s thrifty, frugal, and a saver to the core, he has his sights set on expanding our farm. We already own 19 acres with a nice home and separate garage, and are in the process of building another garage for the various tools and farm equipment we he owns. My one push toward a ‘semi nomadic’ simple life was the purchase of our Hiker Trailer, a cute, rugged simple camper we’ll be picking up next week. Their mantra,…

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    Life Changes

    A lot of things have changed over the last few months, but then again, life always changes. THESE changes, however, feel much more monumental––life altering, in fact. For whatever reason, I’ve recently been given the ability to see more clearly and to recognize situations I’m not willing to stay in. The entire dynamic is a privilege; I’m well aware of this fact. I have been struggling with hard decisions and I’m still in the middle of that struggle but life isn’t about constant ease. We struggle so we can work through our blind spots, change the things that aren’t working and hopefully come out on the other side wiser, more grounded and hopefully happier, having gone through the ordeal and arrived at a better place. The entire situation has provided me with the ability to put life in order, to reevaluate those things that are most important and to let go of the things that aren’t working. This is where I find myself today … still in the middle of it all but making decisions about the next best steps. Using the ocean as a metaphor for life, I’ve been in all of the depths throughout my years––riding the waves of the highs and lows,…

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    Writing for Inner Peace

    Writing for Inner Peace ~ Journaling Prompts (sentence starter prompts … springboards to see where you go) I can and will cultivate a sense of inner peace by … For me, peace is … I feel most at peace when … I bring feelings of peace into my days by doing the following … I believe I can contribute to peace in our world by … Bring your attention to your breath. Close your eyes. Inhale. Exhale. Pause in between.  Allow yourself to settle and really become aware of this moment. Notice your thoughts in this moment. Notice feelings, body sensations. This noticing is the first step of embodiment. It is presence. It is your deepest space of creativity … and you can access it anytime you so choose. Now begin. Choose a prompt above and write. Allow yourself to feel the peace you are creating by focusing on it. “When you are present, the world is truly alive.”  Natalie Goldberg Yes, when we are fully present, our writing is alive and can teach us where to go.

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    Am I Hiding or Honoring My True Nature?

    Lately I’m noticing the way I ‘hide’ in various life situations––I keep quiet. I blend into the background. I try not to stand out. It’s a direct result of a learned behavior that taught me it was not safe, nor advantageous to take up too much space. Learning about my past trauma has uncovered a great many things about life I didn’t notice before, my tendency to hide being one of them. I was never encouraged to find and claim my voice. What I also know now that I didn’t know as a child is that I’m a sensitive being; I can feel explicitly the energy of those around me, good and bad. Negative energy takes the wind out of my sails and leaves me lying on the floor in a heap for hours. It depletes me. I also know that as a sensitive child, my needs were often unmet, not out of neglect, but simply because of the nature of the child I was. I wanted (needed) to be seen and heard; instead I was met with the infamous “stop crying or I’ll give you something to cry about,” which translated into ‘shut up, you’re being too much.’ Eventually we learn to cope with our…

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    Open Hands. Open Heart.

    There is never only ‘one way’ to do things. There are often many answers. Sometimes, though, we ‘should ourselves to death,’ cling so tightly, fixate our brains on a particular outcome, when we only need to let go, surrender, and watch life unfold.

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    Soul + Fabric

    I don’t believe in coincidence. I believe everything has a wider design than we realize, and this post, to me, confirms this fact. I have been a yogi for over twenty years and a meditator for at least ten. In that span of time I’ve come to realize many things about both practices; mostly I see that both point to a larger state of being. The practices themselves are not (necessarily) the point. I came to yoga in a volatile time of my life. It calmed my nerves, gave me an outlet and helped me see there was a better way to live. Meditation is a subtler and deeper level of the practice and over the last decade, I’ve learned lots of other mindfulness practices and have settled on those that are best for me and my temperament. I’ve also come to realize that there are other activities outside of traditional mindfulness practices that create similar results. Hiking, art journaling and recently sewing, are three such practices that, when done mindfully, also become sources of calm and centering for me. I’ve hiked regularly for a long time now, began art journaling about a year ago, and sewing is my ‘newest oldest passion’ that I’ll speak…

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    Holy Week 2020

    Yesterday was Palm Sunday, the first day of Holy Week and I am becoming Catholic. As a child, I attended Mass with my best friend Theresa quite a lot but I never considered becoming Catholic. In fact, I didn’t know it was an option. My journey has been long and the road has been winding and I feel secure in being on the right path for the first time in a long time, maybe ever. What I’m coming back to again and again is this idea of integration. As a yogi for over two decades and a yoga teacher, I have quite a lot of yoga practice and knowledge that is very much a part of my being. The Yamas and Niyamas, and the rest of the eight limbs were, perhaps, what catapulted me into a deeper spiritual voyage than I might not have otherwise traversed. I don’t believe all is lost. I do believe each thing has it’s place. I believe they weave together to make up me, to make up my testimony. I wrote before that life is not either/or but both/and. I guess, for me, I just need to figure out how that all translates into a human life, my human life.…

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    A Spiritual Crisis

    Yesterday I wrote that I believe we as a world, as a species, are in a spiritual crisis. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, that God works all things out for our good. I also believe this situation is a wake up call. As a collective, there are many things that need to change to bring about a greater good. It is up to us to recognize it and to do something about it. I am afraid for our country as well as the rest of the world. As an American, a divide between us has been happening for a long time now. The last election was evidence of it and I’m afraid it grows stronger every day. I am honestly afraid of our president and concerned about his mental health. I know that I am not alone, and I also know there are people who support him more than ever, even in this madness. Do I think this is all his fault? No? But do I think he’s adding to the chaos instead of soothing the American public? Hells yes. Do I also think he’ll act in the interest of re-election, in the interest of the economy over public…

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    Resourcing Resources

    I, like many of you, have been thinking about how I can help in this Coronavirus crisis. As a yoga and journaling teacher, I’ve been thinking about what I have to offer. Online classes? Meditations? Embodiment resources? Journaling prompts? Honestly, though, I’ve needed to resource and find safety within before putting any offerings out there. Some of us are stronger than others. Some of us need time. We’re all individual and we’re all called to help in different ways and at different times. If you’re unfamiliar with the term, resourcing is simply a way of finding safety in the midst of chaos or trauma. I am familiar with resourcing because of the deep work I did a few years ago in the aftermath of my mom’s death. My daughter left our home at the same time so it was like living through two deaths at the same time. I was in deep depression, certainly in a place I’d never been before. But I digress. The important thing is that if you’re feeling unsafe, unsure, depressed or depleted, you find the resources you need to get back to normal, or at least stable enough to get through whatever it is you’re going through. This coronavirus is…

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    Socially Connected While Physically Distanced

    Language matters. How we speak and relate to each other matters. Today, more than ever. What I’m thinking about right now is this new term ‘social distancing’ that’s been proposed throughout the COVID-19 national emergency. While I get the overall concept behind it and the necessity of creating more separation between each of us to slow the spread of the virus, the phrase feels isolating to me. As a new work week begins and the majority of people are home, working remotely, I feel the energy of the collective flowing through me. A heaviness presses on my heart. I am not alone in this. We are far more connected than not. This virus is physically showing us that in very real ways. We need each other and we need to stay calm. We also need to listen to the public health experts and do our part to slow the rate of spread. I acutely recognize the need to self regulate and discharge as much of the toxic, stress-inducing energy as I’m able. Personally, I’ve been practicing pranayama and somatic meditation every day, along with getting outside with my dog. As this outbreak unfolds, it will be even more important to continue and build upon these practices,…