being human

Calling Bullsh*t on the Bullsh*t

I’ve always loved this quote by Anais Nin, “and the time came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.”

It’s a gentle reminder that we are always growing, or should be. I’ve been thinking a lot lately about who I was, who I am and who I want to be. During my ‘yoga decade,’ the ten years I taught yoga as a profession, I stepped into my power, but I also now see that I adhered to a certain ideal about who I thought I needed to be instead of really being me. I’ve lived “tight in a bud” most of my life, maintaining control, composure and properness.

Now that I know I don’t want to teach anymore, I’ve questioned who I am. Isn’t if funny how much we identify with our profession? Well, that’s been my experience anyway. I’ve reevaluated life since I stopped teaching, and I see that my purpose hasn’t changed. My time is just spent differently.

I’m an optimist. I’m a whole lotta peace, love and light. I firmly believe we are all doing the best we know how. I promote simplicity. These are some of my life messages. But it’s time to get real, like really real about who I am. “Do no harm but take no shit” resonates.

Write what’s in you — advice I’ve heard more than once. It’s time I start. It’s time I own all of me. I’ll always do the best I can. I’ll always strive to be the best me that I’m capable of being, but that’s not the whole story. There are bad days, awful behavior, temper tantrums, passive aggressive moments and much more. I’m human.

So, I say, call bullshit on the bullshit. It’s where I am today. In doing so, I hope to give others permission to do the same.