• being human,  embodiment,  gratitude,  writing

    A Word for 2019

    I’m convinced that most of us don’t know what the hell we’re doing here, on this earth, in this time. We think we know, then it all falls apart, and when it falls apart, we often defer to old (destructive) habits instead of digging deeper. One step forward, two steps back. That's been my pattern. I’d ‘do the work,’ then sink in despair, and the cycle would repeat. After about two ‘dark night of the soul’ YEARS, I’d had enough. I had a breakthrough at Christmastime, on a trip away from home. I can’t define the event, but the ensuing thoughts were, ‘this is my life, WTF am I doing?’

  • being human,  embodiment,  gratitude,  love letters for the soul

    Let’s Be Amazing Together!

    I have had many mini epiphanies about life since Christmas. Internal shifts that needed to happen, happened. I’d say ‘the old Heather is back,’ but that's not really true. Something brand new is being birthed and I’m loving it/her. So much of life has been really f*cking hard for two f*cking years, but I had to go through it to get here. I wasn’t sure i’d teach again. Now I know I will. In fact, I'm teaching now, just not in the same way I did before. I trust myself so much more than ever. I’m stronger than i thought possible. 

  • gratitude,  prose & poetry,  rituals

    Gayatri Mantra

    A few years ago I learned to chant the Gayatri Mantra with the intention of doing so for my students during Savasana. I did so just before I stopped teaching group classes. Since that time I've continued to chant it simply because I think it's beautiful. To learn the chant, I found a few versions I liked online, learned the lyrics and melody and just started practicing. I thought I’d write a post in case anyone else is interested in learning it. Below are the words, translation and my version of the chant.

  • being human,  gratitude,  rituals

    Letting Go

    "letting go doesn't mean forgetting; it means we stop carrying the energy of the past into the present" (yung pueblo) Yes, yes and more yes; this resonates deeply but how do we actually DO IT? From my experience, it seems something 'just happens,' a shift suddenly occurs OR we struggle for so long that we eventually must ritualize a new energy into our consciousness ... we must physically do something different, poetic, scary, out-of-character.

  • being human,  embodiment,  gratitude

    Aging and Beauty

    As I'm growing older I'm thinking a lot about aging and beauty. We are lucky to be living in a time of such body positivity. Countless social media accounts promote loving oneself exactly as-is, and in doing so, the message is becoming mainstream -- how different from television advertising days of my youth. I taught yoga for ten years, and during that time I promoted body positivity, giving thanks for our bodies, owning our strengths and limitations. And while it's what I taught, I didn't fully live it. We teach most what we need to learn. I had body dysmorphia (and maybe still do sometimes) and while I acted empowered, I didn't always…

  • gratitude

    The Joy of Beginning

    Each day, a new beginning. Each moment too. Sometimes life is too much. And when it is, what do you do? Do you obsess and worry over things you can’t control? Do you berate yourself for the bad choices you’ve made? Do you wake each morning with the angst of yesterday or the dread of tomorrow? The world’s weight on your shoulders is, in part, a choice. Do you choose to let it take you over, or do you choose something different? Can you allow yourself to go to sleep and let it go? Awaken brand new? It’s possible, you know. Life always moves through. While we are always the same, we’re so…

  • gratitude

    “Life Sucks and Then You Die”

    Where did that saying come from and why did so many of us buy into it?  And if we bought in, what does that mean for our lives? There are literally thousands of things to be aggravated with each day — traffic, electronic malfunctions, unkind people, general hassles, minor inconveniences — but how much does aggravation help? Does it help at all or does it make things worse? In my experience, the latter is true. “Thoughts become things” is a statement I latched onto years ago. I don’t absolutely know it’s true, but it certainly feels true. Every time I allow myself to get caught up in frustration, it seems frustration expands and…

  • gratitude

    How To Be Grateful Each Day, in 10 Simple Steps

    I went to the doctor the other day for a routine visit. The woman checking me in had a bracelet that read ‘content’ with the words facing toward me. I told her I liked it and she said, “Yeah, anytime I complain I’m supposed to move it to the other wrist and turn the word toward me. It helps.” Indeed. I’ve kept a gratitude journal every day for years, I told her. “It’s changed my life.” And what I’ve found over all of these years is that we can complain about anything and everything, but the more negative we are, the more the negativity seeps into other areas of life. If, however, we can…