• being human,  embodiment

    Waking Up

    Albert Einstein is quoted as saying "the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results." I am insane. You are insane. The entire world is insane; yes, the entire world is insane. There are far more insane people here than sane. Why? Because we live in a world of disillusion, ego and conditioning. We live in a world of people who believe in their thoughts. We live in a world of perceived separateness from source. CRAZYmaking bullshit. Our minds trick us into believing everything we think. Our minds believe our negativity and separateness, but our thoughts are not real.

  • being human,  embodiment,  stories

    My Journey to Healing

    This journey to heal myself has been a winding road indeed. I'm not done yet, but a great many things are making a lot of sense. Becoming sober curious has shed light on things I couldn't see, as has counseling and all of the embodiment work I've done in the last year. But learning about my brain throughout the last month has been the most eye-opening of all. The results of my quantitative EEG were telling, though not surprising. Overactive beta waves as well as underactive delta, theta, alpha and high beta waves revealed what I'd suspected, an overactive limbic system. I'm working with a naturopath to eliminate high blood pressure medicine from…

  • being human,  embodiment,  love letters for the soul

    Where I Am Today

    Like everyone, a culmination of events, mishaps and 'a has' have led me to where I am today. There's so much to say, but for now I'll keep this post to a bare minimum, to what feels essential. If you know me personally or have followed me for a while, you know that the last to years have not been my greatest. Witnessing my mom's devastating illness, followed by her untimely passing, as well as working through major life changes with my one and only daughter, literally changed who I am as a person. You've heard the saying, "once you see it, you can't unsee it." Well, it's true, and sometimes life can…

  • being human,  embodiment,  gratitude,  writing

    A Word for 2019

    I’m convinced that most of us don’t know what the hell we’re doing here, on this earth, in this time. We think we know, then it all falls apart, and when it falls apart, we often defer to old (destructive) habits instead of digging deeper. One step forward, two steps back. That's been my pattern. I’d ‘do the work,’ then sink in despair, and the cycle would repeat. After about two ‘dark night of the soul’ YEARS, I’d had enough. I had a breakthrough at Christmastime, on a trip away from home. I can’t define the event, but the ensuing thoughts were, ‘this is my life, WTF am I doing?’

  • being human,  embodiment

    The Body Never Lies

    I'll never understand why the mind tricks us into believing everything we think, so I learn to quiet the crazies and feel the beating of my sweet, brave heart. “Don’t believe everything you think.” I remember seeing a bumper sticker with those words many moons ago, and that bumper sticker, those words, led me down a rabbit hole that is my life ... yoga, pranayama, mindfulness, embodiment ...

  • being human,  writing

    Craving Depth

    I crave deep conversations with people who are real, wholly and unapologetically themselves, people who listen with their hearts and share what's inside of them, without fear of judgement, knowing the same will be reflected back. I don’t have much patience for casual meaningless conversation & ‘chitchat.’ I wish I did. I’d probably be more likable. Instead, I crave deep conversations & meaning, and I was blessed to have two interactions like this yesterday ... one with a friend (who also happens to be my amazing massage therapist) and another with a new colleague at OU. I shared parts of me that I don’t share with just anyone & they did the same.…