Like everyone, a culmination of events, mishaps and 'a has' have led me to where I am today. There's so much to say, but for now I'll keep this post to a bare minimum, to what feels essential. If you know me personally or have followed me for a while, you know that the last to years have not been my greatest. Witnessing my mom's devastating illness, followed by her untimely passing, as well as working through major life changes with my one and only daughter, literally changed who I am as a person. You've heard the saying, "once you see it, you can't unsee it." Well, it's true, and sometimes life can…
I’m convinced that most of us don’t know what the hell we’re doing here, on this earth, in this time. We think we know, then it all falls apart, and when it falls apart, we often defer to old (destructive) habits instead of digging deeper. One step forward, two steps back. That's been my pattern. I’d ‘do the work,’ then sink in despair, and the cycle would repeat. After about two ‘dark night of the soul’ YEARS, I’d had enough. I had a breakthrough at Christmastime, on a trip away from home. I can’t define the event, but the ensuing thoughts were, ‘this is my life, WTF am I doing?’
My mornings are sacred—hot tea, meditation, reflection, gratitude practice, reading, journaling. Its my favorite part of every day & I am ‘off’ if I go too many days without this time. Its a ritual I started about ten years ago as I began to teach yoga, and I’m so glad i did.
I'll never understand why the mind tricks us into believing everything we think, so I learn to quiet the crazies and feel the beating of my sweet, brave heart. “Don’t believe everything you think.” I remember seeing a bumper sticker with those words many moons ago, and that bumper sticker, those words, led me down a rabbit hole that is my life ... yoga, pranayama, mindfulness, embodiment ...
I am so thankful for my years of intensive yoga teaching, learning about the body, the secrets she holds and the ways she refuses to be ignored.
Energy is real, y’all! May we each raise our vibration, do our part to make the world a better place, be vulnerable with one another, laugh at ourselves & love a little harder.
Good morning! Do something to take care of YOU today. Even better, do it with your significant other. My sweetie made our juice this morning: beets, carrots, spinach, apple ... yum!
Come hOMe ... to yourself. This world wants you to forget, but your soul knows what’s up. Psyche is always guiding the way ... in dreams, intuitions, synchronicities, ‘random’ thoughts. Pay attention.
I crave deep conversations with people who are real, wholly and unapologetically themselves, people who listen with their hearts and share what's inside of them, without fear of judgement, knowing the same will be reflected back. I don’t have much patience for casual meaningless conversation & ‘chitchat.’ I wish I did. I’d probably be more likable. Instead, I crave deep conversations & meaning, and I was blessed to have two interactions like this yesterday ... one with a friend (who also happens to be my amazing massage therapist) and another with a new colleague at OU. I shared parts of me that I don’t share with just anyone & they did the same.…
I have had many mini epiphanies about life since Christmas. Internal shifts that needed to happen, happened. I’d say ‘the old Heather is back,’ but that's not really true. Something brand new is being birthed and I’m loving it/her. So much of life has been really f*cking hard for two f*cking years, but I had to go through it to get here. I wasn’t sure i’d teach again. Now I know I will. In fact, I'm teaching now, just not in the same way I did before. I trust myself so much more than ever. I’m stronger than i thought possible.